HAPPY NEW YEAR!
Well, it is almost the end of the first day of 2013, but we have officially stepped into a brand new year. Regardless of how reluctant we are (I am!) about moving forward into this new year that will see us aging inevitably, it is an undeniable fact that 2012 is now part of history that we can only look back on, so either we can choose to reminisce 2012 fondly or wistfully, or think about how nice it would be if we could go back to so-and-so times.
I made a big decision today! I resolved for 2013 that I wanted to deepen my yoga practice, not just to practice regularly but to move a step forward in it. Over the years of practice, no doubt I have seen and felt myself improving in terms of flexibility (I couldn’t even do a proper sit-and-reach for the fitness tests in school before) and strength, but I seem to have reached a plateau and still my alignment is still way off when I see my reflection in the mirrors of the studio. So today, I made a major investment into furthering my practice and working towards better alignment in yoga! It was a quick decision but it was really tough. Nonetheless, whatever I have spent on it, I don’t want to regret the expenditure and I believe that I won’t. *Fingers crossed*
Spent the night of New Year’s Eve at Hood with the UnXpected, along with S and her guy and his friends, and all of us welcomed 2013 together amidst an atmosphere of revelry and well-wishing, with the entire bar singing along to Auld Lang Syne in the first few minutes of the new year.
It was a little odd, to say the least. It isn’t the first time I have been out with couples flanking left and right, I’m no stranger to situations like that, but maybe on an occasion like New Year’s Eve, maybe that is one of the last things I would want to do. Well but at least that is an experience, and now I know how it feels so that in future I can relieve myself of such similar awkwardness. It is not easy for me, of all people, to come to terms with a good friend getting attached. Well, I have close friends who are attached or have got married along the way but maybe when I got to know them they were already at a stage of their lives where they are part of a couple, so that could be the difference. It is a fairly new experience that someone close is now in a different chapter of life, whereas I am still stuck at the same spot, or maybe moving in a direction entirely opposite to this.
For a while, I have maintained a distance, but I realised that only shows how possessive I am getting about my friends. I have to learn that friends, will always be… friends. I can’t expect that they will never get attached or married, because of course I wish too that they can find their happiness in lives with partners who will love and care for them. I just need to manage my expectations of reality better, and know how to deal with events like that happening. It happened, and it will happen with my other friends who are currently still happily single. And I don’t deny that even for myself, it will probably also be the same. So to quote the French, c’est la vie!
I am just glad that this time, I see the light faster, I think. As compared to a previous situation with another friend that involved a misunderstanding, that took years before the knot was finally unravelled.
Here’s wishing everyone the best in 2013. Like my post in FB, I want to live a life I love, and be kinder to myself. I have already began to do that on the very first day this year, so I hope everyone will also have a blast in 2013!