occasional treat

I hit a patch. Or should I call it a block. There isn’t anything that I would really want to blog about, or perhaps the truth is that there isn’t anything that I deem worthy of sharing. Such is my life, running on a routine that most would categorise as staid but oh well, a life is a life.

The weekend that just passed had a slight twist from its usual route though. One of my friends was back in town to settle some big personal matters, and finally, after a great deal of effort, we managed to tie down a time to meet up. Originally, we had planned to head to Hard Rock Cafe, this outlet which I have only been to maybe all of once in my entire life, because Friday night was the night that the UnXpected plays there now. But the problem with wanting to catch live bands are that they typically start at timings that aren’t so friendly to me anymore. I find it an effort to stay out late, even if I can still stay up late at night at home, so 10pm that was the time they would start jamming seemed rather ambitious for me.

We spent a couple of hours chatting over coffee and shared a Banana Walnut Loaf at Coffee Bean, which we couldn’t finish between us, although in my case I was trying not to, i.e. control, whereas for her I think it’s a case of not being able to. Somehow, even with the smaller portions I eat now, my appetite and stomach space are still really healthy and generous. Hmm.

Eventually decided to give the live gig a miss, since it still was sometime to them starting, and went for another session of drinks instead. Of course, what are drinks without these?     20131029-112323.jpg

As I munched on these shoestring fries, my favourite type of fries, drenched and soaked in oil no less, looking at how the paper placed beneath the fries had turned soggy, I tried not to think of the detriment of consuming them. Obsession yes, but probably still not to the point of total abstention. My friend was having a sore throat that day, so you probably could guess it right, that for her, coupled with an appetite that is almost next to nothing, I wolved down most of the plate. These were the leftovers. Up to a point, somehow the oily-ness and unpleasant smell of stale oil got to me and I had to stop eating. So maybe, just maybe, my liking for fries has developed some limitations?

junk food cravings

Once in a while I do suffer from attacks of cravings for junk food. You know, things that have little to no nutritional value, but instead can be of extreme detriment to the body in terms of transfats. It isn’t even healthy fats, like Omega 3 from fish, but rather, unhealthy fats that will cause a lot of harm in addition to of course making one grow fat. I used to be uncontrollable where junk food is concerned; I could finish a large pack of chips at one sitting, and rationalise to myself that it is ok because I am replacing a meal with that. Maybe the calories work out to be the same, or even less, if we were talking about an all-out meal, but even the same calories could mean very different things for the body. If you consume a portion of steak with salad that perhaps contain the same number of calories as a pack of chips, it isn’t rocket science to know which fares better for your body.

donuts But where cravings are concerned, the thought about health and calories can just go out the window completely. I wonder if sometimes I have controlled too much, that there can be very strong urges to just lose control and indulge in the sinfulness of gorging on junk food. Yet I know that the high from its consumption doesn’t last long, and in fact makes me feel worse after. Stress can lead to irrational cravings, and I have read that cravings sometimes tell us about something that the body is lacking. In my case, what am I lacking? Or has stress culminated from some areas that is wreaking havoc on my face, and also internally where these cravings are concerned?M_MsI have not totally sworn off junk food of course, especially not chocolates. How can anyone not like such a wonderful thing? I have so much chocolate stashed away in the fridge that despite knowing that some are long past their expiry, I just keep them there. I guess to me, it doesn’t matter that they may be past the sell-by date because as long as it looks edible still, it’s ok to me. :p popchips

Chips. Sigh, I have such a love-hate relationship with you.